I had forgotten what it was like
having your voice in my ear
influencing my every thought
making me contemplate every action
forcing me to be better than what I am
what I was
what I was going to become without you
after 3 years of your absence
I thought my craving for you had ceased
yet as soon as I heard you once more
my resolve melted and I became empty
an empty vessel waiting for you to fill me up
with whatever you wanted to give
me being in a position to listen more than I ever have been...
Then you spoke
And suddenly you were just a man
not just a man
a boring man
a man with no insight
a man whose only ability was to be a reflection of others
I heard you reflecting me
saying the last few words I said
acting like you understood
pretending you knew what I was talking about
And I finally realized all of the greatness I saw in you...
Was just you pretending to be me.
2008